I finally have a release date. Yes, a solid release date. Now that I’ve given birth, I can pinpoint time. It’s the little things…
All I’ve Ever Wanted will be released on December 2nd.
Here is an exclusive unedited sneak peek. I hope you enjoy. The cover will be revealed within the next week.
Enough babbling…onto the unedited sneak peek!
Coming here was a bad idea.
Joey looked around the fashion show, wondering where he should sit should he decided to stay. He was mainly there to support his brother and sister-in-law but he also knew the real reason he went.
To see if she was there.
It had been a year since he had last seen her and a lot had transpired. Madre’s was doing exceptionally well with three locations. The D’Amato empire grew and made everyone a household name, with talks of a reality show. The family’s wealth tripled and Joey officially got what he wanted – The D’Amatos were considered to be on the wealthiest and respected families in New York.
It didn’t mean much to him without her.
He followed her progress from a safe distance, going out of his way so she wouldn’t feel threatened or intimidated by his presence. It was tough. No, it sucked, point-blank. He knew she was meeting with his brother and he knew it would just be easy to “drop in” during a time they just happened to have a meeting.
He couldn’t do that. It wasn’t pride. It wasn’t anger. It was love. Even if that love was unrequited.
He hated her so bad when they broke up, though he never cursed her out and told her to go to hell. The feeling was on the tip of his tongue and he had played that scene in his head so many times, wishing he told her to go to hell and calling her every foul name in the book. But he always stopped cold in acting in those threats. He loved her too much. He respected her still.
Though she was the one that broke his heart and not the other way around for a change.
He had never been the dumpee, always the dumper. He’d always bailed out of a relationship the moment he became bored or knew it was going nowhere. But with Zoe, his regina, he felt a future. He felt everything.
She, in return, felt nothing.
Maybe that wasn’t entirely true. They were together for a year and Joey was smart enough to know that you either loved someone or didn’t within that timeframe. He loved her with everything he had and showed it via gifts, trips, and unbridled passion in the bedroom. She returned the favor and then some, blowing his mind on how selfless she could be.
When they made love, nothing was taboo or risqué, incorporating toys, porn, and whatever else to keep it hot. Whatever he threw at her, she threw right back at him, daring him to step up to her challenge. He could recall the countless meetings he had gone to, completely exhausted from being up all night but always had a big smile on his face. If only his colleagues and partners knew, he had just received a blow job before the meeting…
And then the relationship was over with a snap of a finger.
Joey decided he was going to stay for the show, after all. If not for her, then for his brother and sister-in-law in their latest business venture. His other brothers and their wives will be arriving shortly, so he wouldn’t be alone. That is what the D’Amatos do – they support each other, no matter what.
He just hoped she wouldn’t see him. He didn’t think his heart would be able to take it.
“Okay, people! The countdown is on! Twenty minutes and counting! Get your final outfits on! If you need to go poop and pee, please let the adult next to you know and do it now! I don’t want anyone ruining Zoe’s hard work! Let’s go! Let’s go! Let’s go!” Zoe’s assistant, Stephanie, barked out to crowded room full of children.
Zoe put the finishing touches on small Black girl wearing a plaid Christmas dress, highlighting her winter line. “Are you nervous?” Zoe swiped a blush brush across the young girl’s cheeks.
“No, Ms. Zoe,” the child replied back softly.
“You’re confident! That’s great! I think I’m more nervous for the both of us,” Zoe dabbed a bit more blush on her brush and applied it to the child. “It’s good to see how confident you are.”
“I was taught to do my best and that’s it,” the girl smiled, proudly showing her toothless grin. “and if I still fail, I know I did my very best.”
“That is great advice!” Zoe sat back on her heels. “Who taught you that?”
“My mommy and daddy!” The girl nodded, shaking her pigtails. “They taught me to be confident.”
The girl’s smile was infectious. “You have great parents.” Zoe smiled. “They raised a bright little girl.”
“Thank you, Ms. Zoe.” The child once again smiled.
“You’re very welcome.”
Stephanie rushed to Zoe. “Zoe, I hate to interrupt but we need to start the line-up soon. People are starting to arrive and get settled.”
“Not a problem. We’re done here. Go ahead and get lined up, Jaime.” Zoe released the girl and she quickly walked away to join the other child models. Zoe stood up and put on her headset. “We have a lot of people out there tonight?”
“You have a ton of people and…” Stephanie bit her lip.
Zoe adjusted her headset and radio. “And what?”
He. Stephanie didn’t have to say who he was. Zoe was very aware who he is. A flurry of emotions hit her – was she happy he came? Was she agitated that he showed up? Was he going to mock her? Was he going to have words with her when all was said and done?
It had been a year since she had last seen him, though it felt longer. Their breakup was painful and it was no doubt she was the reason for the split; a split she regretted almost every single day of the past year. It sounded good in her head and she felt it was best for the both of them at the time.
She couldn’t have been more wrong. She was dead wrong.
She didn’t attempt to date past the split, not because of the clothing line but rather, she was afraid that no man would even come close to him. His touch. His caress. His thrusts. His dominance. His passion. His love.
At night, her body craved him with her folds automatically becoming slick with moisture seemingly upon the very thought of him. She watched their homemade porn videos, over and over, smiling and laughing at how serious and silly they both were behind the scenes before she took matters into her own hands and finished the job the heat between her thighs created.
Each time she put on a piece of jewelry, it reminded her of him. Certain outfits made her uncomfortable because she remembered how he would compliment that particular choice. And her lipstick? She hated it to apply because she remembered the number of times she had to wipe off his lips because the color transferred.
Now he was at her show. And Zoe was pretty certain he was sitting in front row.
She peeked from behind the curtain and quickly perused the room. Who’s Who in the fashion industry had arrived along with some celebrities and their children. She didn’t care about them. She was looking for Joey. Within moments she’d found him and she wished she hadn’t.
Gorgeous. Absolutely fucking gorgeous. Wearing a dark suit with a white open collar, Joey played the role of wealthy business executive to a tee. His auburn hair was closely cropped and he was in the middle of a conversation with his brother, Tony. He occasionally looked up and acknowledged other people in the industry, and some of his celebrity friends who stopped by to say hello. His eyes would briefly scan the room, possibly looking for her, before he returned to conversing with Tony.
Zoe felt her heart thrust against the wall of her chest and it suddenly became too hot in the room.
At the end of the night, they were going to see each other. There wasn’t a doubt about that. Now it was a matter of how to act when they crossed paths. It was either going to be second chances or one big-ass mistake.
Fate had a funny way like that.